Three Easter Reminders About Jesus

As Easter is approaching I thought it would be a good idea to do a quick devotional on a passage I came across in John.  A facebook memory came up the other day. It was from Easter a few years ago. Do you ever see Facebook memories and think “Man, I really had no idea what life was getting ready to throw at me.” And then I get a little scared wondering what life will look like in the next[Read more]

3 names of God to study out when times get tough

  Early on in my grief journey, I was angry with God.  I couldn’t see Him, I couldn’t feel Him, and I’ll be honest, during those very dark times I didn’t want to see Him or feel Him. I felt like he had abandoned me, like he had turned a deaf ear on me. And I just couldn’t understand how He could possibly be good.  A few weeks after we lost our baby boy, my brother in law came in[Read more]

4 ways to honor your angel baby on your due date

You should be here, here in my arms. Crying, sneezing, hiccuping. Smelling of that all too familiar newborn smell. Wrapped in a white, pink, and blue blanket; nestled in my chest. You should be here, searching for me; knowing my smell. Instead, I’m here searching for you. Everywhere. Anywhere. Just to get a glimpse of you; to feel your presence. In the morning glow, the afternoon sunshine, the evening breeze. I search for you everywhere; in every thing. And I[Read more]

4 Ways to Cope With Grief

  It’s been almost 5 months since we lost our baby boy at 15 weeks pregnant. When I say these past 5 months have been the hardest months of my life, I’m in no way exaggerating. I have never felt this type of intense grief in my life.  My husband and I have had 2 previous pregnancy losses. I grieved over our babies during that time. But this time has been completely different. This time I was further along. This[Read more]

3 Promises of Heaven

  He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. Ecclesiastes 3:11 This scripture gets me every time. It speaks to the depths of my soul because it is so true. We are not meant for this world. Our heart knows it, our mind knows it, even our body knows it. As humans, we are always longing for something[Read more]

This Is Miscarriage

  My right arm hurts. It’s where they gave me the Rhogham shot because I have O- blood. The nurse said “This is for future pregnancies.” I felt like telling her “I know, I’ve had this shot countless times already. Why even bother this time? I’m not planning on having any future pregnancies.” My tongue is swollen and sore. Because I bit it while I was under anesthesia and they shoved a breathing tube down my throat to keep me[Read more]

Struggles of a Stay at Home Mama

My oldest daughter turned 4 a couple of months ago. FOUR! I can’t believe it! It has been an amazing 4 years and I honestly don’t know how we ever lived without her. As I reflect on her past 4 years of life, I also can’t help but think about what those 4 years mean for me. They mean that I have been at home for 4 years. That is absolutely mind blowing to me. I never thought that I[Read more]

Goal Setting for 2018

With the New Year just around the corner, it has me reflecting on this past year. I’ve never been big on setting a New Year’s resolution. For 2017, I really just wanted to focus on a specific word that I wanted to stick with me throughout the year. The word I chose to focus on was joy. I had so much to be joyful about in 2017 and I didn’t want to forget that. For 2018, I want to try[Read more]

3 Life Lessons After Miscarriage

As I sit here, a month after my rainbow baby turned 1, I can’t help but think of the emotional struggle I have had the past few months. As her birthday approached, I couldn’t help but feel a bit sad. And I felt guilty because I felt sad. And to be honest, I was also a bit confused. But then I realized the root of my sadness. On the night before her birthday, after I nursed her and put her[Read more]

3 Scriptures on Allowing God to Conquer Your Fears

Fear. Such a simple, yet powerful 4 letter word. As a little girl, I was riddled with fear. I remember I used to fret over many things: was my mom going to forget to pick me up from daycare, would we really run out of water because of the drought they were talking about on the news, might someone try to take me while we were at the store, would my parents get into a car accident on their way[Read more]