As Easter is approaching I thought it would be a good idea to do a quick devotional on a passage I came across in John. A facebook memory came up the other day. It was from Easter a few years ago. Do you ever see Facebook memories and think “Man, I really had no idea what life was getting ready to throw at me.” And then I get a little scared wondering what life will look like in the next[Read more]
Grief is heavy, it is exhausting, it is unpredictable. I think the unpredictability of it is probably the scariest part. You could feel okay one moment and the next you feel the weight of it as heavy as it was the day it began. Whether you are grieving your child, like I am. Your parent, grandparent, sibling, a family member, or a friend, I am so sorry that you came across this page. Here are a few lessons I’ve[Read more]
Early on in my grief journey, I was angry with God. I couldn’t see Him, I couldn’t feel Him, and I’ll be honest, during those very dark times I didn’t want to see Him or feel Him. I felt like he had abandoned me, like he had turned a deaf ear on me. And I just couldn’t understand how He could possibly be good. A few weeks after we lost our baby boy, my brother in law came in[Read more]
I have been teaching with Gogokid for a little over two weeks now and I am absolutely loving it. I have seen companies like Gogokid for a while now and always filed them in the back of my mind for future reference. I have been interested in online jobs since I became a stay at home mom but I have just been so unsure about them or just thought “I would never be hired for a job like[Read more]
I am a stay at home mom to two young children. Sometimes, THE DAYS ARE LONG! And I find myself wondering what we are going to do all day. Especially on those days where the kids are up early and fighting already. Here is a list of things that we do during the day to keep the kids busy and entertained. Outside Play We love going to the park, playground, running trails, nature trails, etc. If we go to one of[Read more]
My oldest just turned 5 and she loves mommy and me date time now more than ever. She has recently started asking for more mommy time. I think this past year she has really noticed how my time is so divided between her, her sister, and daddy. I try to utilize our time well, though sometimes it’s not so easy. In preparation for kindergarten next year, I’ve started weaning her from her nap time. I still make her lay[Read more]
I have three older brothers, and when I say older I mean way older. The closest one in age is 9 years away from me. The farthest in age is 18 years. When he was about to graduate high school, I was born! So i did not really get to grow up with my brothers. Two of my three brothers were already out of the house by the time I could actually form memories haha. So I basically grew up[Read more]
You should be here, here in my arms. Crying, sneezing, hiccuping. Smelling of that all too familiar newborn smell. Wrapped in a white, pink, and blue blanket; nestled in my chest. You should be here, searching for me; knowing my smell. Instead, I’m here searching for you. Everywhere. Anywhere. Just to get a glimpse of you; to feel your presence. In the morning glow, the afternoon sunshine, the evening breeze. I search for you everywhere; in every thing. And I[Read more]
As a stay at home mama to 2 energetic little girls, sometimes my internal battle is: should I just let the kids binge watch Netflix all day? Or should we actually do something productive to stimulate their little minds? I can proudly say that we save those Netflix binge days for sick days or “mental health” recharge days for mama. Haha Sometimes being at home with young kids all day, who need that sensory stimulation, can be exhausting. And sometimes[Read more]
It’s been almost 5 months since we lost our baby boy at 15 weeks pregnant. When I say these past 5 months have been the hardest months of my life, I’m in no way exaggerating. I have never felt this type of intense grief in my life. My husband and I have had 2 previous pregnancy losses. I grieved over our babies during that time. But this time has been completely different. This time I was further along. This[Read more]